Random Thoughts On Being Spiritual.

I am not religious. I am spiritual, that is, my version of spiritual. It is said of ‘spiritual’ that it is a ‘way of being’ (courtesy the ‘world wide web’ 😊), which provides scope for very wide interpretation, fair enough! Being ‘spiritual’ means different things to different people, as it should.

I think I may have a problem though. I need to focus my spiritual thoughts/ ideas, whatever you may call them, on someone or something. If you tell me about a ‘higher power’ or the ‘universe’ and such like, I will listen but all of that don’t work for me. I cannot and never will be able to thank the ‘universe’ for all the good that happens to me or for that matter curse the ‘universe’ for all the bad that happens to me. I never look up and whisper words (or make signs) at the sky. I am not very good with the unknown. 

I will digress a bit and tell you that even the ‘universe’, as we ‘scientifically’ know it, always scared me. Space, the great big unknown, is the stuff of nightmares when I have to personally confront it. I have never in my life looked through a telescope- the very thought of it makes me break out in cold sweat. The enormity of the unknown overwhelms me.

Anyway, what is my point? 

I am convinced that if something happens to me, good or bad, it is energy that I have sent, bouncing back from a real person (could even be from within me!) or another life or a physical object. A person, a bird, a tree, a rock- yes absolutely! I need to see, touch, converse- I need to know.